It seems I once again find myself longing for holidays past……..When I look back they were the happiest of times, the kids were little, both sets of grandparents were alive, and of course I thought it would never end. But it did. They are memories now, and I wouldn’t trade them for anything but sometimes I wish I could go back there if just for one moment. The memories get all muddled together but I am so thankful for them. Sometimes a memory can smooth over a painful moment. Kind of put a glaze over it so you don’t feel the sting so bad. The holidays for me have changed so much. I don’t really recognize them anymore. Sadly, I really don’t look forward to the holidays anymore. I often wish I was away on a trip, someplace different. Maybe unfamiliar surroundings would lessen the pain. Start a new tradition. Troy loved the holidays. He loved nothing more than having his children around. So this Christmas again I will miss him and his silly shopping antics. Troy, it’s just not the same without you.
Jane is a Widow 