I am so glad the holidays are over. No matter how hard I try they are just not the same without Troy. He loved Christmas and always shopping at the last minute. And he always came up with the best gifts. You could tell he put a lot of thought into what he bought. They were unique gifts. I sometimes wondered how he came up with some of them. Christmas was always hard for me. My childhood memories of Christmas aren’t very good. But Troy made up for all of that, so without him I find myself sinking back in that depressing mood from years gone by. I know he would be upset with me for moping around. But he’s not here to make it all right. He always knew the right thing to do or say. He always made it all right. He knew me so very well. I guess spending all those years with me he could read me so very well. I think I need to be somewhere else when the holidays roll around next year. Maybe somewhere warm and beautiful. I said that same thing last year and I didn’t go anywhere this year. I’m finding the more I stay at home the more I want to stay at home. That’s probably not a good thing. I need to work on that……
Jane is a Widow 