I think spring is almost here. Makes me think of Troy and how he would be planning his garden. I’m still at a loss about Dr. Crates. He was my doctor for 20 years so its hard for me to contemplate another doctor dealing with my RSD. But I have to find someone to replace him. I thought he would always be around to take care of my leg. I am kind of at a loss right now. Need to start making decisions and sticking with them. Sometimes I’m all over the place. I guess I am still finding myself. I think the real me was buried for many years. I just keep uncovering layers of myself.