Awakening…..

2021 is another year of awakening for me. I miss Troy every day. He was my rock. Things are changing so much. I remember my father-in-law telling me all the time to remember you can only count on yourself. He was a gruff man with a big heart. He would give you his last dime if you needed it. I loved that man and was so glad I got to tell him that and give him a big hug the day before he died. He had a sad life growing up and I believe that’s what made him so gruff. After his Dad died his mother got remarried and her husband told her she couldn’t keep the two oldest children just the young girl. So began his life of being passed around to whomever would let him stay with them. He loved Troy so much. He was always there for him. And he respected both of us and never said anything negative about any of our decisions. Troy told me that his Dad never talked about the time he hit a man with his car and he died. 2021 is starting to be an eye opening year for me. I’m 65 I should know by now that things aren’t always how they seem. When Troy died my life changed so drastically. One never knows until they go through it. I am still adapting to him not being in my life physically . But everyday he’s in the decisions I make and how I move forward. Things I learned from him will guide me on how to get through what’s going on in my life. I’ve learned a lot this year and going forward I will have to adapt to changes in my life. I miss those who were there for me no matter what. They loved me for who I was not what they thought I should be. They helped make me who I am today.