One more day until the horrific day that forever changed my life. Wish I could just skip over it. It will always remind me of the pain I felt that day and still feel. It’s ever changing but it is there. He was having so much difficulty breathing, I never could understand how he was doing ok with the meds and the next time I saw him he was gasping for air. Every breath was a struggle for him. What the hell happened? This wasn’t the way it was supposed to go. He was supposed to get better and go home. How could this be happening??? I knew as I watched him struggle to breathe that the chances of him going home were pretty slim. But I do believe in miracles, I prayed for one but it didn’t happen. The longer he was on the ventilator I knew the chances of him going home weren’t very good. This was such a nightmare, one I wanted to wake up from. He had told Trey he wanted to talk to me but the next time I saw him he was on the ventilator, so I never knew what it was that he wanted to tell me. I wish I knew…….tomorrow I will finish telling this nightmare.
Jane is a Widow 