When I let the dogs out this morning it felt very strange. Something in the air felt familiar. The morning felt like it did back in 2013. Brought tears to my eyes. Our life had taken a sharp left turn and there was no going back. This was it. The fact that we didn’t like it, didn’t matter. I have days where I feel like I’m back there, and this was one of them. There is so much intertwined in our lives. There are memories everywhere I look. This was about the same time my Aunt Allie and a cousin took my Aunt Beulah for a visit to Kentucky. I wish I had known they were going to do that cause I would have told them not to. One of the worst things you can do to someone who is suffering from dementia is to take them out of their comfort zone. Allie called me from Kentucky and asked me what I was going to do cause Beulah was acting upset. There was nothing I could do, you just need to get her home. Which they did, more stress is not what I needed. Allie wanted me to come up there because of Beulah, I told her I really couldn’t because Troy was dealing with cancer. I loved Beulah dearly, but I just couldn’t get up there. Sometimes all of these memories hit me it seems like all at once. I just sort through them and try to move forward. That’s all you I can do.
Jane is a Widow 