I don’t really know why I decided to go over things that happened in 2013 and 2014. I don’t know, maybe I was hoping for a different ending. Like going through it all in my mind, I could change the outcome? We all know the ending. As Troy once said, “it is what it is”. So I think I will stop here, it’s just too painful to relive those last days. Reliving it messes with my head and makes me so sad. I sometimes feel angry at Troy for leaving me behind. It was supposed to be forever. I hope I don’t sound ungrateful for Melvin, he’s been a godsend. I’m so thankful for him. I’m so thankful he was here when I had my heart attack, I don’t know if I would have been able to call 911. Thank you God and Melvin. I’ve went through other stressful events since Troy passed and there was no one there for me, now there is. Thanks Melvin.
Jane is a Widow 