I came across something that I wrote 9 years ago on this day. “As I stand back and look at my life, I don’t recognize it anymore. So many of the feelings I’m having for the first time in my life. I have a big gaping hole in my heart, there are really no words to describe my sadness and pain. As Troy’s birthday get closer, I pray that God will show me the way so that I no longer feel like I am outside looking in.” I have come a long way, I still have that hole in my heart but it has healed some. I sometimes still feel like I am outside looking in. I know he would be sad if he knew how things are in our family. I remember him crying in the hospital that he just wanted everyone to get along. He would be crying for sure now. Family was so important to him. Until we meet again, save me a seat Troy.
Jane is a Widow 