Always look for signs from those around you. In that first year I missed quite a few. As I look back now, everything falls into place. There were times little snide remarks were made to me but I let them slide. I should have never done that. Maybe I could have prevented some of the things that happened. I’ve always been too trusting, plus I have in the past not stood up for myself. I put up with unkind things people said and did to me. Not anymore. There are certain things you shouldn’t do that first year. I wish I hadn’t made a will during that time. I have had mine changed since some major things have happened since then. Being in that fog the first year affects your reasoning and actions. I didn’t see people as they really were. I do now. Grief is ever changing.
Jane is a Widow 