in 2013, Troy found out he had esophageal cancer. I was in total shock upon hearing the diagnosis and he was in so much pain because the doctor perforated his esophagus. The ambulance would take him to the hospital and he was admitted to ICU. I wanted to scream please let me off this roller coaster. Our lives would never be the same, forever changed. Your life can change in a matter of seconds, you always hear that but you always think it won’t happen to you, but it does. Our lives became before the cancer and after the cancer. We had just went to Florida a few weeks before, I know why he picked Florida, he knew how sick he was and it was a chance for him to see the beautiful ocean and beaches. Unfortunately, that would be our last vacation together. There are so many memories of those months following the diagnosis. Sometimes they all run together, all I wanted to do was wake up from the terrible nightmare we found ourselves in. My mind is full of our 38 plus years of memories. I’m glad I have them but I hate the ending to it all. But life goes on….so remember to love….not hate… because none of us are getting out of here alive.
Jane is a Widow 