October is the most colorful month in Indiana, I miss all those pretty leaves that fall in the autumn. October was also a month of losses for me. In 2015 on October 3 I lost my favorite aunt who treated me like a daughter. She used to say I don’t have any children so I’ll just call you my daughter. I miss her, we talked weekly and wrote letters back and forth. The last time Troy and I visited her she was showing signs of dementia. She slowly lost her sense of who she was. It was sad to watch. No more phone calls, no more letters. I was always trying to get her to move down here, I always told her that we had a room just for her. But she had lived most of her life in Indiana, and she didn’t want to leave. I have wonderful memories of her. Then in October of 2017 I lost my Sadie, she and Lucy kept me going after Troy died. If it hadn’t been for them I wouldn’t have made it. They barked at me to get up every morning. I just lost Lucy in December 2023. They will never be forgotten, they were there for me no matter what. Don’t always think you can count on people, cause you can’t. They let you down every time. And sometimes you think you really no someone but you really don’t. Even someone you lived with the majority of your life. Don’t count on anyone. You’ll just get hurt…..
Jane is a Widow 