Author: janep38

The memories of Troy on the ventilator are forever etched in my mind. It was so hard to grasp what was happening. One of his doctors called me one night and said I don’t think he’s going to come out of this. He said the cancer will get worse because he’s unable to do the chemo that is required while he is on the ventilator. I was still praying for a miracle. God would let me know when it was time to let go.

Thinking about Troy’s last text to me. He was getting ready to sleep and he wanted to say good night to me, Sadie and Lucy. Then something happened. His breathing got worse and they had to put him on the ventilator in the middle of the night. We would never talk again. He would never come home. My world was about to come crashing down. It would never be the same.

Troy’s breathing continued to worsen the next day, it was hard to believe how much had changed in just one day. He was really starting to struggle to breathe, and it seemed the meds weren’t helping at all. As I look back 10 years, I can see it all unraveling. So many prayers were being said for him, but his symptoms continued to worsen. It was all surreal, like this can’t be happening, but it was. The Sunday prior was Father’s Day, I could tell he was feeling worse than usual. I stayed home from church because I was afraid to leave him. Little did I know that the week would continue to go downhill for him.

Ten years has passed since Troy went to the emergency room and never came home. They admitted him to the hospital and later they put him in his room. He was diagnosed as having pneumonia. He seemed to be doing ok when I left the hospital that day but things would take a turn for the worse before the night was over. He was moved to ICU and from there everything was on a downward spiral. To be continued….

Happy Birthday to the most awesome daughter. Troy would be so proud of her. She is a hard worker, good person, and treats others with love and respect. Love you to the moon and back!