Author: janep38

I'm a widow whose trying to find my way through my grief......one day and one breath at a time.....

Fathers Day….

Happy Fathers Day to all those fathers out there. Troy so loved being a father. He gave so much of himself to his children and it made him so happy. I miss my Dad and Father in law. He treated me like a daughter. He was a gruff ole man but I loved him. He gave so much of himself. I miss them all so much. They all helped make me the person I am today. Thank you!!! đŸ’•

Goodbye Ed….

The Lord decided to take Ed home on June 11, 2023. He was such a nice person, I’m really going to miss him. He really gave cancer a good fight, its just always hard to hear about how cancer destroys oneself. His death is only 14 days away from when Troys was. I am really feeling the sadness with first Jacqueline, now Ed. They were part of out widowed group. They had both been through a lot, then cancer struck Ed. I’ll never forget them, they left a mark on me. Godspeed.

Ed….

Many prayers and well wishes for my widowed friend Ed. He’s such a sweet guy whose dealing with the wrath of cancer. Reminds me a lot of Troy’s fight with it. Cancer is so brutal, it shows no mercy. Keep fighting the fight Ed, we are all in your corner.

Changes, changes, changes….

They just keep coming but then that’s life. I’m in the process of making changes to documents that will be needed when I pass. In the years since Troy has passed, there have been a lot of changes. New people in my life, and people that were in my life but decided they didn’t want to be in it anymore. Hindsight is 20/20. When I look back I see all the signs, maybe I ignored them because I didn’t want to believe. But when one day it smacks you in the face, you believe it. Onward.

Jacqueline….

I’m so sorry to hear that my widow friend Jacqueline passed away this morning. I didn’t know she was in hospice. She was always joking around with us, especially about songs. I posted the song Spirit in the Sky one time and she said oh I hate that song. We got a laugh out of it. So every time I hear that song I think of her and just laugh. I’m going to miss you my friend, we had fun with the songs, playing words with friends, and just chatting. Godspeed.