Author: janep38

although there is no February 29th this year, I will celebrate my birthday. It really doesn’t feel like I have one when there is no 29th. My Dad always said I should celebrate it on March 1, since I wasn’t actually here on the 28th, haha. I remember my Mom wishing that I would hold onto the 1st of March. But I preferred to make my entrance on the 29th. It’s been a good birthday so far, I prefer to say I’m 16 and will be 17 next year. My kids used to tell people that they were older than me haha. Hey Jane you made it another year, thank you God.

Melvin and I went out for dinner with my brother and his wife. We spent the evening enjoying wine and food and lots of memories. Robert told some stories I didn’t even remember. It was fun reminiscing. I have so many memories that give me comfort when needed. I wouldn’t trade them for anything. They are not all perfect but they are mine. Sometimes we laughed so hard at some of them. It was a great evening, we plan on doing it again. We will reminisce again and our hearts will be full of the happy and sometimes sad times. But I wouldn’t trade them for anything. They are mine. They are there whenever I need them.

Feeling very emotional today, it’s the one year anniversary of my heart attack and ambulance ride. Feeling so grateful that God saw me through to live another day. My health is not what it was but I pray every day for healing. With God anything is possible. I’m so thankful for Melvin, don’t know what I would do without him. He does so many of the things around the house that I’m unable to do. Troy would be grateful to him. That was the biggest concern of Troy’s, that I have someone to count on for help. Thank you God. 💕

I’m looking to make changes that will honor my wishes if I should pass. There have been changes since Troy passed and I need to make sure that those changes are reflected. I can’t believe how much things have changed but they have. It’s like my life has been a roller coaster of changes since he died. Sometimes I want to say, please let me off. But we can’t stop those changes. I’ve learned that I can’t always trust people that I counted on. Sometimes we get thrown to the curb. All we can do is get up and keep plugging along. And from those experiences learn. Troy and I always did our best to be good people, we treated people right and we sacrificed a lot so our children had what they needed. And everyone that knows me, knows that is the truth. No matter what someone else may say. Shame on anyone who says differently. You don’t know what you’re talking about.