Author: janep38

who weave lies will eventually get caught in the web of their own deceit. …Erin Chatters

I’ve learned that I cannot let stress caused by other people affect my health. I’ve had one heart attack and I must protect myself from another. I’m taking steps to protect myself from this one toxic person who really cares nothing about me and never has. Some people are born to be trouble makers unfortunately. I’ve discussed this with my brother and he agrees with me. I thanked him for his advice in dealing with this situation.

Yesterday was my only living aunts birthday. She’s always been such a sweet aunt, always friendly. I only got to see her when we visited my grandparents. She’s always been such a good Christian. Though I didn’t see her often, I still have fond memories of her. On a different note, I am learning so much about toxic, narcissistic people and those who are evil. I now see a lot of the signs I missed such as those at Troy’s funeral. There was a big red flag that I missed cause my mind was a thousand different places at that time.

I talked with my childhood friend last night for hours. We reminisced about different things. We have so many memories from our 50+ years together. We also talked about how when someone does something mean to you. to justify it they have to make up lies about you. But in the end the truth will win, that I know.

Another beautiful fall day. I’m trying to get my paperwork done with my changes so it can be notarized. I am going to work real hard getting the house ready to sell. Florida is really looking good right about now but so is the hill country.

I always think of Troy in the fall. I think it was his favorite season. It was always so beautiful in Indiana when the leaves were changing colors. He would often take walks in the woods behind us. I love the cloudy, dreary days occasionally. They seem so peaceful. I’m doing what I can to bring peace to my life and no drama. I can’t believe the drama that I have had to deal with since Troy passed. If you know a widow make her life easier by being honest and helpful to her instead of creating drama and lying. That’s the last thing she needs. Treat her like you would like to be treated.

I’m so thankful for my many friends who have been so supportive of me. I still have a friend that I’ve known since I was 8. We’ve been through a lot together. I don’t know what I would do without her. 💕

Yesterday I made progress executing the changes I need to make. It will take some time as anything that involves paperwork is slow. I took a call at work from a man who was reporting the death of an employee. I offered my condolences to his widow. I’ve been at the very place she is. My heart and prayers go out to her.

Went and put flowers on Troy’s grave. Started making changes today that are changes I never thought I would have to make. But people change. Sometimes you don’t know them like you think you did. My beliefs have never changed. I lost a cousin last week that I used to have so much fun with. We kept in touch after I moved to Texas but our letters between us became fewer and fewer. She was a great cousin and I have great memories of times with her.