Author: janep38

Yesterday was my only living aunts birthday. She’s always been such a sweet aunt, always friendly. I only got to see her when we visited my grandparents. She’s always been such a good Christian. Though I didn’t see her often, I still have fond memories of her. On a different note, I am learning so much about toxic, narcissistic people and those who are evil. I now see a lot of the signs I missed such as those at Troy’s funeral. There was a big red flag that I missed cause my mind was a thousand different places at that time.

I talked with my childhood friend last night for hours. We reminisced about different things. We have so many memories from our 50+ years together. We also talked about how when someone does something mean to you. to justify it they have to make up lies about you. But in the end the truth will win, that I know.

Another beautiful fall day. I’m trying to get my paperwork done with my changes so it can be notarized. I am going to work real hard getting the house ready to sell. Florida is really looking good right about now but so is the hill country.

I always think of Troy in the fall. I think it was his favorite season. It was always so beautiful in Indiana when the leaves were changing colors. He would often take walks in the woods behind us. I love the cloudy, dreary days occasionally. They seem so peaceful. I’m doing what I can to bring peace to my life and no drama. I can’t believe the drama that I have had to deal with since Troy passed. If you know a widow make her life easier by being honest and helpful to her instead of creating drama and lying. That’s the last thing she needs. Treat her like you would like to be treated.

I’m so thankful for my many friends who have been so supportive of me. I still have a friend that I’ve known since I was 8. We’ve been through a lot together. I don’t know what I would do without her. 💕

Yesterday I made progress executing the changes I need to make. It will take some time as anything that involves paperwork is slow. I took a call at work from a man who was reporting the death of an employee. I offered my condolences to his widow. I’ve been at the very place she is. My heart and prayers go out to her.

Went and put flowers on Troy’s grave. Started making changes today that are changes I never thought I would have to make. But people change. Sometimes you don’t know them like you think you did. My beliefs have never changed. I lost a cousin last week that I used to have so much fun with. We kept in touch after I moved to Texas but our letters between us became fewer and fewer. She was a great cousin and I have great memories of times with her.

Getting ready to go to cemetery and put flowers on Troy’s grave. Wanted to go yesterday but it started storming and we couldn’t go. I’ll have a talk with him about my plans to see an attorney to make changes to a document I did after he died.

I just need to remind myself that there are a lot of evil people walking this earth. We are never really alone if God is in our life.

Today would be Troy’s 71st birthday. The 8th one since he passed. To say I miss him would be an understatement. He would not recognize our family unfortunately. Thank God Melvin has come into my life, otherwise I would be alone. I’m hoping to relocate in the future but things have been progressing slowly, thanks to me. I’ve learned many things since his last birthday. I’ve prayed for guidance and I’m taking steps next week to make big changes that will affect myself and others in the future. I must stay on top of things and make changes when it’s best for me. Love you Troy, until we meet again. 💔