Author: janep38

how childish and immature people are. There are all these arguments about the election. When I was growing up everyone got along, they didn’t care who you voted for. But these days people even throw out family if they disagree with them. Pretty sad that people are so shallow. Sometimes they make up lies about people to make them look bad, but people that know you know better. That is the reason this country is so divided, people cannot respect others choices. They are inconsiderate and have disdain for anyone who disagrees with them….like I said childish and immature….this speaks volumes about your character or should I say lack of.

2017, I had to say goodbye to Sadie. I was so close to her, she had congestive heart failure, and I had to let her go. I had to go by myself to have her cross Rainbow Bridge. Our daughter was at work, and our son was out of town. This should have been one of the early signs of what was to come. Sadie and Lucy both kept me going after Troy passed. I didn’t know what I was going to do without Sadie. I still miss her just as much today as I did when I said goodbye that day. Sometimes when we are going through something tragic, we don’t always see things as they really are, unfortunately. As I look back at different events since Troy passed, I see the sometimes subtle signs that should have been a clue to me….We sometimes don’t see people as they truly are, but in the end we see them for what they really are….

in 2013, Troy found out he had esophageal cancer. I was in total shock upon hearing the diagnosis and he was in so much pain because the doctor perforated his esophagus. The ambulance would take him to the hospital and he was admitted to ICU. I wanted to scream please let me off this roller coaster. Our lives would never be the same, forever changed. Your life can change in a matter of seconds, you always hear that but you always think it won’t happen to you, but it does. Our lives became before the cancer and after the cancer. We had just went to Florida a few weeks before, I know why he picked Florida, he knew how sick he was and it was a chance for him to see the beautiful ocean and beaches. Unfortunately, that would be our last vacation together. There are so many memories of those months following the diagnosis. Sometimes they all run together, all I wanted to do was wake up from the terrible nightmare we found ourselves in. My mind is full of our 38 plus years of memories. I’m glad I have them but I hate the ending to it all. But life goes on….so remember to love….not hate… because none of us are getting out of here alive.

someone close about consequences. Sometimes a decision is made and the consequences of that decision come at a later time. You should always think before you act, cause you can’t go back and change it later. We owe it to others to always give them the benefit of the doubt, that’s just part of being a good person. And others can see that what you are saying isn’t true, so you are only hurting yourself, not the other person. You are only making yourself look bad, cause others know the truth. And like I said you can’t undo the damage done, people see you for what you really are not what you have been pretending to be. Cause a good person would never do such a thing….

message this morning from a guy who had lived across the street from me when we were growing up. He’s the boy in my birthday picture that was featured in the New Castle Courier. Even though he didn’t graduate from Shenandoah, he went to the reunion. He moved to Pendleton from Middletown. He said I missed you at the reunion, well I have been sick so maybe next time. I haven’t seen him since he moved away. He used to call me every now and then and we would catch up. It is nice to reconnect with people from your past….

prayers to my friends in Florida. I pray that you stay safe during this hurricane. It’s hard to believe that it’s been such a horrible hurricane season. I guess I have changed my mind about moving to Florida, think I will just stick to southern Texas. I was thinking about Troy today and how much he liked the fall season. I’m so glad that he accepted whomever was in my life. He never told me that I could not have a relationship with someone if he didn’t like them. Thank you Troy for always being so understanding and unselfish. I would never tell anyone who they could have a relationship with, we should never ask anyone to give up a relationship with someone because we don’t like them, especially a family member. Being selfish like that will always come back to you, let others decide who should be in their life….

Wolf in sheep’s clothing. Beware, cause you never know when that sheep’s clothing will disappear. Prepare yourself for the ultimate betrayal. It will knock you down but you have to get right back up!!! Don’t ever think you deserve being treated badly, you don’t. Honestly I feel sorry for those have been hurt by others for no reason at all. There’s never a good reason to treat someone badly especially someone in your family. Think about it!!!

BFF. She knows everything about what is going on in my family. We have been friends since age 8 so we know each other inside and out. I’m glad I have her to sound off to. And I’m there for her too. I just recently found one of my buddies from the 70’s. She lived in Daleville and we hung out together a lot. She was in my wedding, I lost touch with her but I am so glad I found her again. We were together most weekends cruising the streets of Middletown. What fun we had. Maybe one of these days we will get together again, she’s always welcome down here for a visit. So is my BFF. I miss all my friends, but I sure have some great memories of our time together. Good Times……

The Hill Country. I love it down there, I was looking for places to relocate to. It is definitely my happy place. It is getting too congested up this way. I know Troy would want me to go where I’m happy. It’s so hard to believe it’s been 10 years since he left this earth. I think many times of our millions of memories. I’m so thankful for them, thank you for helping me make them.

know at least one narcissist, you know the person who expects you to think like they do, like what they do, and try to control everything about you. I’m sure glad I wasn’t married to one, that was the last thing Troy was. He accepted everyone for who they were, not who he expected them to be. Things are never good enough for a narcissist unless they came up with them. They never accept other’s possessions, they just aren’t good enough. How shallow. But it all catches up with them in the end. Being a narcissist can be costly. You know who you are….and so does everyone else. Enjoy….