Jane is a Widow

Just found out that another widow friend passed away. He had a massive heart attack. I chatted with him many years ago, he really missed his wife. Only another widow/widower could understand his pain. I knew right where he was coming from. After all we were both members of the same club, you know, the club no one wants to join.

Was going through some papers and found a letter someone texted me last year. It’s so hilarious, amazing how much stuff people can make up. Maybe I will share it with you all, I’ve shared it with all my friends and they couldn’t believe that someone said what they did. That’s what narcissists do, they are very good at making up stories. That’s why we all can see right through them.

I’ve been missing my mother-in-law lately. Missing her more than I normally do. I was thinking about her fried chicken, it was the best. Really missing her attitude on everything. She was always upbeat, nothing ever got her down. She came to our house in Muncie every Sunday after church. Troy would go to Famous Recipe and get chicken. This was after John passed away. They both had hearts of gold. I just miss them, a lot. They treated me like their own. If you have someone like that in your life, you’re so lucky. Appreciate them and let them know how much you appreciate everything they’ve done for you. A simple thank you goes a long way.

The nine year anniversary of Troy’s passing left me thinking about our life together. We worked hard during our life together to give our children opportunities we ourselves didn’t have. My parents never offered to pay for a college education for me. I worked two jobs for twenty years for the benefit of someone else not me. Now I’m having all that thrown in my face and told what a bad person I am. I spent twenty years paying off a student loan that didn’t benefit me at all. I’m glad Troy isn’t here to see all this hate for all the sacrifices we made. Look out, cause eventually a big wake up call will hit you in the face. By the way, you’re welcome.

Nine years ago today at 5:23 pm Troy took his last breath. Some days it seems so long ago, some days it feels like yesterday. I’ve went through so many changes since that day. My life is ever changing. I’m so thankful for Melvin who is in my life. Troy would like him. And for those of you who chose to discard me from your life, don’t ever think Troy would approve of your behavior. I’m thankful for all those who have been there for me. There are good people we just have to seek them. Until we meet again Troy, love you.