Jane is a Widow

It’s starting to feel a lot like spring. Flowers are blooming and trees are budding. Troy would be planning his garden about now. He loved having a garden. We had such an awesome garden where we lived in Indiana. We grew the best tomatoes, we had bushels and bushels of them. We both missed our great garden cause it’s more of a challenge to grow vegetables in Texas. But he tried year after year to grow the ever elusive tomato like we had in Indiana. I still have a garden though smaller than the one he had. I’ll keep trying just like he did.

As I celebrated another birthday without Troy in my life, some of the changes since his death have been life changing for me. As I look back at the early days following his death I realize now that a big change was in the making, but my widows fog prevented me from recognizing it. What I thought was someone looking out for me was actually them working to stab me in my back. The works were in motion and it would be several years till I would see someone for the evil person they really are. Troy must be rolling over in his grave at the current situation but as he always said it is what it is. I’m thankful to God because maybe this is his way of protecting me from evil. There are evil people in this world unfortunately. Evil people have to always be in control of every situation. They control others and set the rules. What they say goes. If you question them, they make up lies to further their agenda. I pray for those who are being controlled by someone else. Think for yourself, set yourself free of the hold they have on you.

although there is no February 29th this year, I will celebrate my birthday. It really doesn’t feel like I have one when there is no 29th. My Dad always said I should celebrate it on March 1, since I wasn’t actually here on the 28th, haha. I remember my Mom wishing that I would hold onto the 1st of March. But I preferred to make my entrance on the 29th. It’s been a good birthday so far, I prefer to say I’m 16 and will be 17 next year. My kids used to tell people that they were older than me haha. Hey Jane you made it another year, thank you God.