Jane is a Widow

I was thinking about all my widowed friends today, hoping that they are remembering to just breathe every day, just take it one step at a time. I was thinking back to the day Troy passed and how I was suddenly thrown into this fog and lost my way. I didn’t know which way to go, and I put so much trust in people that they were looking out for me. But as the years passed, I saw that they weren’t. When the fog lifted as the second year started, I was suddenly hit in the face with reality. And as each year has passed, I’ve seen that things haven’t been like I thought they were. People weren’t looking out for me, they were looking out for themselves. I’ve learned so much, I doubt that I will ever trust anyone again. People can put on different faces for who they want to be depending on what it is they want. They can discard you in an instant. I could never do that to someone, I have more integrity than that. I could not hurt someone like that, but hey that’s ME.

I’ve been reading the book I bought and it’s quite eye opening. There were signs all along the way but they were subtle. I remember Troy mentioning to me the pictures on more than one occasion. There weren’t any of us.

I received my book in the mail yesterday and I’ve only read a few pages but it’s so eye opening as to what’s going on. The author has been there done that and it’s so enlightening to read about someone dealing with exactly what you are.

here in Texas. I’d rather deal with the heat instead of the cold. We are working on deciding what it is we want to do. A RV sounds like such a great choice. Stay tuned.

Yesterday I read a very interesting article that continued the saga of Meghan Markle. She has asked for a visit with Prince Charles but according to the author Prince Charles went well out of his way to help with the marriage of Meghan and Harry. Now fast forward she wants to speak with him after she trashed him and his family, it looks like your and Harry’s boat has sailed. That’s what happens to those who deceive and lie about others. So don’t ever think that your family is the only one that has people in it that like to cause trouble and drama. Just remember life is too short to even let it take up space in your life. Unfortunately there are delusional people in this world.

The Queens funeral I couldn’t help but notice what is going on in the Royal family. There are so many troublemakers existing today in families causing drama and rift. Made up lies and estrangement. Harry is now estranged from his family because of the absurd comments and trouble caused by his wife. Nobody wins in those situations. Meghan Markle may think she’s in the driver seat (most of them think they are) but eventually all the lies and drama catch up and the price paid can be costly.

We have such good neighbors, one stopped by to ask if we needed anything since Melvin is recovering from surgery. I have an appointment with my cardiologist next week, I’m sure he will tell me to avoid stressors such as toxic family. I sure don’t want to have another heart attack.