Jane is a Widow

Another beautiful fall day. I’m trying to get my paperwork done with my changes so it can be notarized. I am going to work real hard getting the house ready to sell. Florida is really looking good right about now but so is the hill country.

I always think of Troy in the fall. I think it was his favorite season. It was always so beautiful in Indiana when the leaves were changing colors. He would often take walks in the woods behind us. I love the cloudy, dreary days occasionally. They seem so peaceful. I’m doing what I can to bring peace to my life and no drama. I can’t believe the drama that I have had to deal with since Troy passed. If you know a widow make her life easier by being honest and helpful to her instead of creating drama and lying. That’s the last thing she needs. Treat her like you would like to be treated.

I’m so thankful for my many friends who have been so supportive of me. I still have a friend that I’ve known since I was 8. We’ve been through a lot together. I don’t know what I would do without her. 💕

Yesterday I made progress executing the changes I need to make. It will take some time as anything that involves paperwork is slow. I took a call at work from a man who was reporting the death of an employee. I offered my condolences to his widow. I’ve been at the very place she is. My heart and prayers go out to her.

Went and put flowers on Troy’s grave. Started making changes today that are changes I never thought I would have to make. But people change. Sometimes you don’t know them like you think you did. My beliefs have never changed. I lost a cousin last week that I used to have so much fun with. We kept in touch after I moved to Texas but our letters between us became fewer and fewer. She was a great cousin and I have great memories of times with her.

Getting ready to go to cemetery and put flowers on Troy’s grave. Wanted to go yesterday but it started storming and we couldn’t go. I’ll have a talk with him about my plans to see an attorney to make changes to a document I did after he died.

I just need to remind myself that there are a lot of evil people walking this earth. We are never really alone if God is in our life.

Today would be Troy’s 71st birthday. The 8th one since he passed. To say I miss him would be an understatement. He would not recognize our family unfortunately. Thank God Melvin has come into my life, otherwise I would be alone. I’m hoping to relocate in the future but things have been progressing slowly, thanks to me. I’ve learned many things since his last birthday. I’ve prayed for guidance and I’m taking steps next week to make big changes that will affect myself and others in the future. I must stay on top of things and make changes when it’s best for me. Love you Troy, until we meet again. 💔

I’m really missing Troy right now. He saw people for what they really were. He would see through their fake personality and always say to watch out for who they really were. He warned me and often mentioned names. I now see what he was talking about. He was so smart.

A warning to all those who become widows, it’s like it’s open season on you from family members. This is the 8th year since Troy passed and family members continue to show their true colors. They expect you to do what they want you to do, vote the way they want you to vote, believe what they want you to believe. If you don’t follow their rules they trash and exclude you from family functions. Then they send you a two page letter telling you how much they have hated you and how miserable you made their life. They lie about you and if you have a new partner they lie about them too. It’s really sad and I know Troy would be so disappointed in those very people he thought would look out for me. You must purge from your life these people who only wish you harm. If you can’t count on family, who can you count on. There are widows you can align with and offer support. You must always be on guard. I believe in what goes around comes around and at some point they will be served. It’s not enough that I lost my husband, but I must also deal with selfish, arrogant family members who want to control me. I never dreamed that my life would take such drastic turns along the way, but it has. Those I thought loved me really don’t. I don’t recognize my life anymore.